New Years Blues

Ok so yesterday i just found out that im not going to ring in the New Year all so merrily. Because I get to get all four of my wisdom teeth taken out on the 29th. Which means I'll be pretty much doped up on pain pills when we officially begin the year 2009. I'm kind of worried now though about the actually surgery. Everyone keeps seeing the need to tell me their horror stories about when they got their wisom teeth out. This keeps freaking me out. For instance I always drink with a straw, it's just how i like to drink, and for about a week after the surgery i will not be able to use a straw with out creating a dry socket, which i've been told is one of the most painful experiences, ever. Ya so not really looking forward to that, and the fact that i'm not going to be able to eat anything really of substance for more than a week after that, isn't looking too great either. I'm just getting really nervous, I'm sure I'll be fine but it still worries me alot. O' well i guess we'll just wait and see. = }

Confusion

Ok so a forwarning, Mark your not going to like this blog, srry.

Ok so guys always complain about girls being moody and always changing their minds. Well im sorry to break it to the guys but they do the same things. Lately the guy i hang out with seem to be moodier than i am. I dont know what its about and i dont want to ask about it because when you bring it up he just gets moodier then denies that hes upset. Uggghh! Its a mess, i dont know if its something hes going through personally, if so i would like to help him through it, or if its something going on with his family, or maybe if its me even. I just really have no clue. I think tonight im just going to be straight and honest with him and hopefully he'll return the favor and be straight and honest with me too. Because thats one of the reasons were such great friends, were always honest with each other even if the truth is harsh, but its always better than lies. I just hope that if it is something serious that i have the strength to hear it if its about me, or the wisdom to help him through it if its not. Confusion is every where, and it seems like it is really around me.

Ok so I don't really know what to talk about this week. Nothing instantly pops to mind, so i think i'll just get back to you later this week.

- Ok so a topic finally came to me- brother-sister relationships. the reason i'm thinking about this is that my brother is in 7th grade and in religion and in the catholic religion in 8th grade you get confirmed. This year they are trying to make it easier on the kids by starting all of the confirmation business early. Well this lead to who my brother wanted to be his sponser and he picked me. This is kind of a big deal because me and my brother are notorious for never getting along well, in fact we most of the time just try to avoid each other as much as possible. So him actually wanting me to have something to do with his life is kinda huge. It got me thinking that next year I'll be in college and we wont really be seeing each other all, which might be the reason hes picking me, because deep down he is going to miss me. Which kinda makes me sad and all warm and fuzzy inside at the same time. I realized today that while i was all excited to leave and i had considered what my parents were feeling about my leaving that i never even considered what Ethan would feel about my going away and leaving him as an only child, for the most part.
The tables get reversed now, i got to live for 5 years without a younger brother around enjoying the full attention of my parents at home, now he gets to enjoy 5 years without me around untill he gets to college himself and moves out. Its kinda cool how that all turned out. Now i get to see how he likes having all the attention. Peace =D