feeling the christmas spirit

Ok so yesterday was the first day that i have officially started feeling the christmas spirit. It happened sometime during the student council gift exchange. I was feeling kinda down this holiday season cause i haven't really gotten into the festive mood this year. However, yesterday between the exchange of presents and the cookies and ski i finally got excited for christmas. So now i am super excited for the rest of my gift exchanges and for Christmas eve, cause thats when i get the best of my presents. But also im excited just to spend some quality time with my family and friends, play some games, eat some good food, and just enjoy the company. Christmas time is here again!

New Years Resolutions

So its that time again that everyone starts thinking about their new years resolutions and how next year they are going to reinvint themselves. I most of the time don't ever really stick to what i plan on doing or really care about setting a goal even. This year, however, I decided that I am going to start a plan and actually stick to it. Especially since next year my day-to-day routine will be totally turned inside-out with college and dorm life. So I have decided to start working on a few of my habits that need changing, and doing this will hopefully ensure that me and my room mate get along, well as long as she doesn't have any wierd habits as well. So things like not hitting my snooze button eight times, and picking up after myself better. So new year new habits, hopefully. Wish me luck!

Christmas, a time for giving?

So Christmas time is officialy upon us now. This is the time for giving and getting, the time for being genorous and charitable. However, for me it is also a time for being broke. With out fail everytime December rolls around, no matter how much i save away all year i always tend to be broke. This year i put away $250 for Christmas but lo-and- behold, my insurance is due right at the beguinning of Dec. so all that money for Christmas is gone, buh-bye. Uggghhh, real life issues really stink. Not looking forward to the day when i have to pay for all the bills by myself. I will diffenetly have to get a better job before than, thats for sure. Oh well- heres to hopefuly having a happy holiday.

New Years Blues

Ok so yesterday i just found out that im not going to ring in the New Year all so merrily. Because I get to get all four of my wisdom teeth taken out on the 29th. Which means I'll be pretty much doped up on pain pills when we officially begin the year 2009. I'm kind of worried now though about the actually surgery. Everyone keeps seeing the need to tell me their horror stories about when they got their wisom teeth out. This keeps freaking me out. For instance I always drink with a straw, it's just how i like to drink, and for about a week after the surgery i will not be able to use a straw with out creating a dry socket, which i've been told is one of the most painful experiences, ever. Ya so not really looking forward to that, and the fact that i'm not going to be able to eat anything really of substance for more than a week after that, isn't looking too great either. I'm just getting really nervous, I'm sure I'll be fine but it still worries me alot. O' well i guess we'll just wait and see. = }

Confusion

Ok so a forwarning, Mark your not going to like this blog, srry.

Ok so guys always complain about girls being moody and always changing their minds. Well im sorry to break it to the guys but they do the same things. Lately the guy i hang out with seem to be moodier than i am. I dont know what its about and i dont want to ask about it because when you bring it up he just gets moodier then denies that hes upset. Uggghh! Its a mess, i dont know if its something hes going through personally, if so i would like to help him through it, or if its something going on with his family, or maybe if its me even. I just really have no clue. I think tonight im just going to be straight and honest with him and hopefully he'll return the favor and be straight and honest with me too. Because thats one of the reasons were such great friends, were always honest with each other even if the truth is harsh, but its always better than lies. I just hope that if it is something serious that i have the strength to hear it if its about me, or the wisdom to help him through it if its not. Confusion is every where, and it seems like it is really around me.

Ok so I don't really know what to talk about this week. Nothing instantly pops to mind, so i think i'll just get back to you later this week.

- Ok so a topic finally came to me- brother-sister relationships. the reason i'm thinking about this is that my brother is in 7th grade and in religion and in the catholic religion in 8th grade you get confirmed. This year they are trying to make it easier on the kids by starting all of the confirmation business early. Well this lead to who my brother wanted to be his sponser and he picked me. This is kind of a big deal because me and my brother are notorious for never getting along well, in fact we most of the time just try to avoid each other as much as possible. So him actually wanting me to have something to do with his life is kinda huge. It got me thinking that next year I'll be in college and we wont really be seeing each other all, which might be the reason hes picking me, because deep down he is going to miss me. Which kinda makes me sad and all warm and fuzzy inside at the same time. I realized today that while i was all excited to leave and i had considered what my parents were feeling about my leaving that i never even considered what Ethan would feel about my going away and leaving him as an only child, for the most part.
The tables get reversed now, i got to live for 5 years without a younger brother around enjoying the full attention of my parents at home, now he gets to enjoy 5 years without me around untill he gets to college himself and moves out. Its kinda cool how that all turned out. Now i get to see how he likes having all the attention. Peace =D

Halloween Fun!

Most people when asked would say that Christmas or their birthday was their favorite holiday, and while i love both of those days, don't get me wrong, i would have to disagree. For me Halloween is my favorite. You get to dress up and be somebody else for the night. Its all about fun and games on Halloween, you goof off and mess around, unlike Christmas where you have to dress up and behave and all that. Also, everybody participates, its not a religious holiday, though it actually does have a religious background. See, originally Halloween was called All Hallows Eve. Which was a day where the spirit world was supposed to be closer in contact with the human world. The day after Halloween, Nov. 1st is All souls day. All hallows eve is more associated with evil spirts, where as all souls day is more associated with nice or kind spirits. All Souls Day is celebrated on the Christian calendar, and thus making it a religious holiday, however since Christians dont celebrate All Hallows Eve because of its evil association, that leaves Halloween as a religious free holiday. Ok, so thats all the random trivia i have for today. Trick or Treat! =D

Political Jummble

Ok so right now everyone is being bombarded with election campaign ads, debates, people's opinions about who you should vote for, yada-yada, so on and so forth. Honestly, im pretty tired of everytime you watch the news, or simply turn on the t.v., your attacked by political views and standings. Currently i would have to say that if i could vote my vote would be cast for Obama. While he is not a saint and i dont agree with everything that he stands for, the majority of what he says i do agree with and support. Yes, McCain does have some good points but not enough to sway me to the Republican side of the ballot. Thats just my opinion, what i'm entitled to. I acknowledge that other people disagree with my decision and thats fine because their entitled to that themselves. I also want it to be known that this is my opinion, that i have based on my beliefes, not anyone elses. No matter who you vote for though, just get out there and vote if your able. If you dont vote then your giving up your voice, and that means that if your unhappy with the president later then you have no right to complain, because you gave up your voice. VOTE!

Ok so i think i may be missing a week but im not sure so i'll just do two this week to make sure im covered.
Ok so more on the growing up topic. Now i cant decide because somedays my parents just drive me so nuts that i cant wait till im out of there and on my own, when i dont have to listen to what they say and why they think they are doing the right thing, even when i know that is not always the case. They tell me i need to take care of my own responsibiities like, car payments, car repairs, insurance payments, applying for college and setting up college days. Then in the next breath they say that i'm not an adult yet and that i still have to listen to them and obide by their rules. I need them to make up their minds and either give me all the responsibilities and benifits of being an adult, or take care of things for me and have me listen to them still. I would rather the first option because im now use to the responsibilities i just have yet to really see any benifits. While i may sound completly bi-polor now because this completly contradicts my last blog, i still think its the truth. I know that there is a lot more i could be paying for such as, food, schooling, our house, electricity, etc.; but i still think i pull enough of my own weight that i should be givin more respect and lenancy around my house. Ok rant time is over, thx for listening or tuning it out or w/e

the BIG choice; growing up

So this week i took my first college day of the school year. I went to SIUE, which i love, and i have pretty much decided that will be the college i'm going to. So now starts the application fun, and applying for scholarships and loans and all that non-sence. It kinda makes me appriciate the time i have left in high school, days were i dont have to know what i want to do with my life or think about the "big picuture". Days that i can goof off and hang out with my friends and enjoy the last few moments of still being innocent and not having to worry about bills or a full-time job or how im going to make it day to day. Thats my goal this year, to enjoy what time i have left just being a kid, not trying to grow up too fast. Cuz when your grown up, sure you dont have anyone telling you what to do or when to do it, or even how to do it. But then you have to start making those choices on your own and hope and pray that you made the right decision. Ya those kind of responsibilities i think i'll try to prolong as long as possible. So while all my classmates are trying to break away and go it on their own, i think i'll just enjoy the time i have, because soon enough it will be gone.

Post #2, lets hope its better

Ok so this week has been good so far. No major stresses, well besides the usual test and homework stress, and I really don't have a lot going on right now. This means this is an amazing week. I havn't had to run around really and I've actually been able to spend some time with my family and my boyfriend. Next week will go back to being caotic so im going to try to enjoy this one as much as possible. Its always good to enjoy the little things in life. =D

First Blog, here goes nothing

This first blog, i have a feeling, is going to be a little grade-schoolish. So, sorry if you get bored I'll try to do better next time. Right now the biggest thing i have going on in my life would probaly be practicing and trying to perfect, though not so sucessfully, our flag routine for the milk bowl. That and making our milk bowl shirts, which by the way, look amazing. Well so far, today after school i have to go finish the back of them. I'll try to post pictures with the designs on them later this week. I guess you could say that would be one of my hobbies. Making crafts and being creative. Hopefully, this hobby of mine will work out for the best later on in life, when i go to college. Since I want to go into marketing.